Holiday!

I’m actually having some time off. And this makes me smile, a lot.keep-calm-and-come-back-next-week-2

Next week, I’m not doing any work. Well, OK, I’m not doing anything except the one bit of work I couldn’t get finished before the deadline because I haven’t got all the information to finish it with. Then I’m done.

I’m planning to do loads of things I never get a chance to do. I’m going for a swim, and to the gym. I’m going to find a couple of good films to watch at the cinema and just lose myself for an afternoon. I’m going to sit in coffee shops and people watch, to come up with ideas for my fun novel project. I’m going to get round to watching all the films I still have from Love Film and haven’t managed to watch yet. I’m going to read loads of the books I have on my Kindle, listen to music, and write a bit of the novel for NaNoWriMo every day.

I can’t wait!

I love that feeling just before a week off, where I haven’t got anything to do. Even if I have plenty to do when I come back to work! I’m a bugger for not letting myself have any time just to ‘be’ and I’m really looking forward to waking up tomorrow and thinking “Nothing to do for over a week”

I’m going to keep on blogging about the things that make me happy though – I missed a couple of days because I was a bit poorly but I’m back on it now, feeling grateful and happy that I have the kind of job where I can just decide “Sod it – I’m taking time off and nobody’s gonna stop me.”

In an ideal world, I’d be going to Paris, Venice or Verona with the beloved. maybe next year. Until then, I’ll spend my time imagining travelling to all these places and then writing about it. Well, it’s a start…

A little bit of woo woo

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I’ve been mulling something over for a while now, and I think I’ve made a decision; I’m going to start offering Reiki as another service. I’ve recruited some volunteers and I plan to do some work with them and get some testimonials…and once I have them, I’ll add a separate Reiki area to my website and start charging for it. Because it’s lovely!

It’s part of my mission to be more authentic, be who I really am and not stress about what other people think of me.

I have two different sides to my personality, business-wise. I’m the Relentlessly Positive, woo-woo, Law of Attraction, positive thinking kinda girl who loves to post about anything upbeat and a bit hippy. I love this side of me, she’s fun and quite entertaining and wants to make the world a better place, one blog post at a time.

The other side of me is practical, business-headed and cares about what people think, maybe a little bit too much. Some people don’t approve of Reiki, thinking its a cult, or some weird therapy that couldn’t possibly work. For some it might be contrary to their religious beliefs (even though it’s not a religion and is perfectly compatible with believing in God, Allah, Buddha or Jedi Masters.)

Since I’ve been part of the Goddess Circle and started finding out about how other women manage to keep their heart-led businesses in harmony with their bank accounts, I’ve realised that I might be doing myself down by pretending I’m not a little bit out-there, and denying my woo-woo leanings. I’m starting to think that accepting this might actually move me forward in my life and business.

Another thing I’ve been wary of pushing too much has been my plus-size positive nature. I’ve found it hard because I haven’t always been 100% happy with my size, but also because there are certain nagging voices from my past trying to tell me that the plus size, body positive gang isn’t one I want to publicly admit to being a part of, and that I should pretend I’m on a diet. because I should be on a diet, because being fat is morally repugnant and not very nice to look at.

I know where all this has come from and the people who sowed those seeds of self doubt aren’t even in my life any more. So it’s time to embrace my woo-woo and while I’m at it, get back on board with my body positivity. It’s who I am, it’s what I do and it’s actually OK.

So I’m going to be adding Reiki, Goddess Circle and Plus Size pages to my business site, and bringing out the new look authentic and a little bit woo-woo Sarah. I hope you like her…

Shoulda Woulda Coulda

my-to-do-list-funny-picture-13870“Should” is one of those words that seems quite innocuous but seems to cause a lot of stress when you use it.

I’ve made a bit of a resolution for 2013 – not to go with the ‘shoulds’ so much.

I have trouble sometimes, separating my me-time from work time. It’s the downside of having the desk, sofa and TV all in one room. Sometimes things can get a little bit overlappy! I tell myself I *should* answer that work email that’s come through on my phone at 8pm, I just need to fire up the laptop and send that ever-so-important document RIGHT NOW.

I tell myself I*should* tidy up the kitchen even though I’ve literally just sat down after working non-stop and then cooking dinner.

I convince myself that I *should* work on a weekend if I’m home alone “just to get it done.”

I find myself sitting down after I’ve switched off the computer, telling myself that I *should* write a blog or I *should* go on Twitter and do some networking.

Just recently I’ve been trying to interrupt these shoulds and ask myself what I actually want to do. The shoulds don’t tend to crop up around things that I know I have to do, like deadlines and paying bills. No, they appear to nag me into doing something that isn’t strictly necessary at that moment, but that I feel as if I ought to do it to keep someone happy.  Or to live up to the ridiculously high standards I try to set myself and invariably can’t maintain!

I suspect my shoulds are one of the reasons I rebel and eat too much. I know I *should* put the chocolates down, but I don’t want to.

Anyway, 2013 will be the year I banish SHOULD. If I need to, I will, if it can wait, it will and if I don’t need to, I won’t stress over it.

Oh, but I REALLY should go and empty the dryer…